I'm putting this post out there because I'm feeling a little crazy at the moment and I'm hoping that maybe someone can relate, or offer wisdom. Lately I’ve been experiencing what I can only describe as “injury paranoia”. It started a couple weeks ago when, after a very successful 14 miler I decided that I wanted to try the whole marathon thing again. I was hoping it was just nerves but it hasn’t really gotten any better.
I’m so terrified that this marathon journey is going to end the same way the last one did… in injury. I’ve been stretching, and foam rolling, and ice-bathing, and taping, and warming up and cooling down every workout as well as strength training my quads, hamstrings, and VMO muscles every week. I’ve been emailing my coach non-stop about tips and tricks to remain injury free, and even wearing an old pair of running sneakers when I run errands rather than my normal flats. I’ve been paying acute attention to every twinge and tightness I feel during any run and taking it easy when in doubt. And yet… I’m paranoid.
Last night I looked at my calendar and realized that I injured myself 13 weeks before my marathon last year. This Sunday will officially BE 13 weeks from THIS marathon. That didn’t help. Then I realized that my flight to Chicago to run this thing will be on Friday the 13th. Then I went for a run at the gym and felt some knee pain but couldn’t tell if it was in my head or not. I could feel it when I focused on it, but not when I didn’t. When I was done running and stopped the treadmill the room started spinning. I was pretty sure I was going to faint. It reminded me of exactly what happened on my 18 miler almost 7 months ago.
I feel like I’m losing my mind. I want to move on and let my injury go. How do you all do it?